《Hjordis，我想你》：奶奶過世後，爺爺怎麼辦？

天下 03-10

攝影師Erik Simander正在計劃另一個項目的時候，他的祖母去世。徵得爺爺同意準備做關於他的項目。主要原因還是想陪在爺爺身邊，回顧他們在一起的時光。Erik不想讓我的祖父感到被暴露，這個項目的過程特別緩慢。他希望自己的照片傳達某種情感，而不是僅僅是記錄。

想像你是一個老人，你生活中的每一天都與你的妻子在一起，直到有一天，她突然死了。這是27歲的瑞典攝影師Erik Simander的祖父身上發生的事。在他的系列新作《Hjordis，我想你》中，Erik拍攝了爺爺悲傷的照片，這個男人對妻子的死亡倍感悲痛，從此孤獨一人住在空空的家中。

Imagine being an old man, spending every day of your life in the company of your wife until, one day, she suddenly dies. This is what happened to the grandfather of 27 year-old Swedish photographer Erik Simander. In his series Hjordis, I Miss You, Erik captures his grandpa in poignant photos as the man grieves over his wife』s death and copes with having to live in a now empty home.

訪談Interview

你好Erik，謝謝能答應這次採訪。作為攝影師，你的主要興趣是什麼？

Hello Erik, thank you for this interview. What are your main interests as a photographer?

我喜歡做關於人和社會問題的故事。它不必是任何大的或宏偉的，只是一些我偶然發現和有趣的即可。它必須是基於個人偏好的。但是，是的，講故事的方面，我喜歡在日常生活中尋找最小的細節。

I prefer doing stories concerning people and social issues. It doesn』t have to be anything big or grandiose, just something that I happen to stumble upon and find interesting. It』s based on personal preferences. But yes, the storytelling aspect is what I enjoy the most—finding small details in everyday life.

《Hjordis，我想你》是跟拍你的祖父，他試圖適應沒有你的祖母的生活。她是什麼時候死的，而這對他有多麼難以承受？

Hjordis, I Miss You follows your grandfather as he tries to adjust to living without your grandmother. When did she die, and how hard has it been for him to move on?

我的祖母在2015年2月突然去世，這對我的祖父造成了沉重的打擊。當然對他來說這很難過。在我和他一起的時候，我拍攝，這有一種不斷持續的悲傷。他患有AMD（年齡相關性黃斑變性），其導致他視線的中心沒有圖像，他還有青光眼和聽力障礙。在某種程度上，他失去了他的眼睛和耳朵，還有他的妻子。我的祖父去年三月去世，我相信，在我祖母去世後，這是不可避免的。他從來沒有真的熬過來。

My grandmother suddenly died in February 2015, which took a heavy toll on my grandfather. It was hard for him, of course. During the time I spent with him, photographing, there was a sort of constant sorrow. He suffered from AMD (age-related macular degeneration) which results in no vision in the center of the visual field, as well as glaucoma and having trouble hearing. In a way he lost his eyes and ears, with her death. My grandfather died in March last year, and I believe that was inevitable after my grandmother』s death. He never really moved on.

你為什麼決定在你祖父生活的這個困難時刻拍攝他？

Why did you decide to photograph your grandfather in this difficult moment of his life?

當時我在計劃另一個項目，當我發現我的祖母突然去世的時候，我正在趕去另一個項目，當時可能想以此緩解自己的悲傷吧。但幾天後，我決定不去拍那個項目。所以我打電話給我的祖父，問我是否可以做一個關於他的項目，然後回家開始為他拍照。我之所以決定回家，主要原因不是想做一個攝影項目，而是陪在他身邊，當他需要人的時候有人在身邊。當然這很困難，但是卻非常治癒。現在我可以回顧我們在一起的時間，這不是在最快樂的日子，但仍然要需要我們記住。

I was planning another project during the time I found out my grandmother had passed away. I did go and begin that project anyway as a way of coping with the situation, but after a few days I decided not to. So I called my grandfather and asked if I could do a project about him instead, and then went home to him. The main reason for reaching him wasn』t to do a photographic project but rather to be around him and help him with whatever was needed. It was difficult, of course, but very therapeutic. And now I can look back at our time together, which wasn』t under the most joyous of circumstances, but still something to remember.

《Hjordis，我想你》有一種敏銳的電影風格。你能談一談你的拍法嗎？

Hjordis, I Miss You has a keen cinematic style. Can you talk a bit about your approach to making these images?

我喜歡全方位地拍照，我經常會想到一個創意或一個構圖，之後便儘可能執行出來。這個項目尤其是這樣，它是一個相當緩慢的過程，因為我不想讓我的祖父感到暴露於鏡頭之下。我試圖在不同的情況下，拍攝幾張照片，然後放下相機。我喜歡以抽象的方式工作，在某種意義上，我想讓我的照片傳達某種情感，而不僅僅是描述性的。

I prefer to photograph apprehensively, and often have an idea of a photograph or composition in mind that I then would like to execute if possible. This project in particular has been quite a slow process since I didn』t want my grandfather to feel exposed. I tried to be around in different situations, taking a couple of photos, and then putting down the camera. I like to work in an abstract way, in the sense that I want my photographs to convey some kind of emotion rather than just being descriptive.

在拍攝《Hjordis，我想你》時，你有任何具體的參考資料或靈感來源嗎？

Did you have any specific references or sources of inspiration in mind while working on Hjordis, I Miss You?

我沒有真正參考什麼，因為這個項目本就不是計劃內的。我受到了斯堪的納維亞攝影的啟發，經常可以感到憂鬱，這可能在淺意識中影響我。

I didn』t really have anything to go by since this project wasn』t planned or so. I am inspired by Scandinavian photography which often can feel melancholic, something that probably affected me subconsciously.

你希望觀眾對《Hjordis，我想你》作何反應？

How do you hope viewers will react to Hjordis, I Miss You?

我相信每個人都可以關注這種故事，因為這是每個人都會遇到的，即使一個人不喜歡去想它。失去你的親人也是可怕的，無論你是80歲還是20歲。我希望觀眾可以了解這個系列，也許以個人的方式，並找到自己可以涉及的東西。

I believe everybody can relate to this kind of story, since this is something that happens to everyone, even though one doesn』t prefer to think about it. It』s equally terrible to lose your loved one, whether you』re 80 or 20 years old. I hope that the viewer can interpret the series, maybe in a personal way, and find something that they themselves can relate to.

你的攝影主要受什麼影響？

What have been the main influences on your photography?

除了攝影，我受到電影、所聽的音樂，還有大自然的啟發。

Besides photography, I』m inspired by movies, listening to music, being in nature.

誰是你最喜歡的當代攝影師？

Who are some of your favorite contemporary photographers?

安娜·克萊倫，彼得·騰·胡彭，漢娜·摩德。

Anna Claren, Pieter Ten Hoopen, Hannah Modigh.

《Hjordis，我想你》：奶奶過世後，爺爺怎麼辦？