她酒後會變成另一個人，我更喜歡喝了酒的她

「說實話，我更喜歡喝了酒的她。她是高功能酗酒者。酒後，她會變得很率真、衝動。我們會做一些毫無計劃的瘋狂的事，比如開車去海邊看鯨魚。

但是一旦她清醒了，所有的這些就都消失了，宗教儀式也變得重要了起來。每隔一個小時，她就會喃喃地念起戒酒協會教她的頌詞。而且她還會變成虔誠的天主教徒，開始慶祝宗教節日，還會經常談論它。

我曾經試著參與，甚至繼續前往西班牙，沿著聖人的道路前進。遊行隊伍里的每一個人都看起來深受啟發。我們會在途中的小教堂停下，然後所有人都開始冥想和祈禱。

她很快樂，會說：『這讓我覺得真實』。但我並沒有這種感覺。我沒有蔑視或者不屑，我想感受它，但我就是沒辦法。

那時我就知道我們的關係已經破碎了。因為那麼多此的旅行都是在共享一個體驗，而我們沒法再共享了。」

「Honestly, I liked her more when she was drinking. She was a very high-functioning alcoholic. She was spontaneous. We』d do unplanned, crazy shit like drive to the ocean and look at whales.

But once she got sober, all of that went away, and ritual became very important to her. You couldn』t talk to her for an hour without hearing a mantra from AA. And she got very Catholic. She started celebrating religious holidays and going to talks.

I tried to participate. I even went on this trip to Spain where we followed the path of a saint. Everyone in the tour group seemed to be so inspired. We』d stop at these small churches and everyone would contemplate and pray.

She was happy. She』d say things like: 『This feels so real to me.』 But I didn』t feel it. It』s not that I felt disdain. I wanted to feel it. I just couldn』t.

I knew then that our connection had been frayed. Because so much of travel is sharing an experience. And we weren』t sharing the same experience anymore.」

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Humans of New York是紐約攝影師Brandon Stanton開創的街頭攝影計劃，他每天在紐約的街頭尋找普通的紐約人，請他們講述自己的生活和感悟，簡單的幾句話里常常有讓人會心一笑或者擊中人心的力量。

在Humans of New York的激勵下，世界上很多城市都有人開始了類似的攝影項目，其中也包括不少中國城市。我們也會從中選擇部分有意思的故事不定期發布。

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